Monday, December 25, 2006
Once again it is Christmas' Eve, but I don't seem to be enjoying the coming of the season. The atmosphere of it is not there for me. I should say that this year is really different; things seem to be not working out right for me. I seem to be somehow more lonely, more un-motivated and etc. Maybe it is because everyone is busy, so has less time to hang out. So hoping that there will be a time where most are free, there is the time, but I miss it… the class chalet. So wasted… the opportunity of gathering just slipped away. Then I hope that there will be another gathering, the Christmas countdown like last year which I missed it. In the end, there isn’t any… Stay at home during Christmas' Eve is so bad, both the English and Chinese channel stations are showing love movie… the storyline of the movie all set me thinking of several things. Actually, I become a lot weaken; I have to admit that… I am not as strong as I seem to be… well never mind. I often feel like giving presents to all my friends, it is never done… maybe it is quite impossible for me to deliver the presents to their house respectively like Santa does… Why can’t I just give it to that someone special I like, I don’t know… maybe I should just only give it to her, this way things will be way more easily… the problem is I don’t have her address… actually that is not a problem, the problem is I 'hum'. Everyone said that Wee Kiat is very 'hum', but he face it and make his confession, he even deliver his Christmas present to her house. I did none of it, nothing at all… all I do is thinking… and that doesn’t help in any progress.
Though I very much want to spend my Christmas outside, once again I am indoor and bored out... however nothing better to do but sleeping every now and then. Hehe... well that's about it... nothing much about Christmas day.. Byebye..
Oh, by the way… MERRY CHRSTMAS EVERYONE.
posted at 6:52 AM
Monday, September 04, 2006
posted at 11:57 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Long time since i last posted a blog... well suddenly I feel very sad and depressed for several reasons. Maybe it is the day after Valentine day, suddenly I think back all the things I have done and events gone through on Valentine day. I feel happy but also sad because all those were belong to the past, now i have nothing to remember. The girl I like the most is not who I known in the past, but that is ok because I have forget all the things that is needed to forget aout her.. just keep some memories for myself to recall. I think I am emotionally fragile now, i feel like crying out because I think it may help to relieve myself. Another thing I feel sad of is I actually a big asshole because I do not know how many wrongs I have done. It is just too many i think that i feel bad about it. I feel like crying for another reason is I get touched by the trailer of " A Season of Love" , it really touch my heart... I wonder what happen if i watch the whole movie. Sigh.. perhaps I got to sorted of my emotions..
I think I am starting to sound like a old man who encounter too much of his life, even my sister also say that...
Violentking,
Ziyun
posted at 5:05 AM
Friday, January 06, 2006
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
posted at 7:31 AM