Monday, December 25, 2006
Once again it is Christmas' Eve, but I don't seem to be enjoying the coming of the season. The atmosphere of it is not there for me. I should say that this year is really different; things seem to be not working out right for me. I seem to be somehow more lonely, more un-motivated and etc. Maybe it is because everyone is busy, so has less time to hang out. So hoping that there will be a time where most are free, there is the time, but I miss it… the class chalet. So wasted… the opportunity of gathering just slipped away. Then I hope that there will be another gathering, the Christmas countdown like last year which I missed it. In the end, there isn’t any… Stay at home during Christmas' Eve is so bad, both the English and Chinese channel stations are showing love movie… the storyline of the movie all set me thinking of several things. Actually, I become a lot weaken; I have to admit that… I am not as strong as I seem to be… well never mind. I often feel like giving presents to all my friends, it is never done… maybe it is quite impossible for me to deliver the presents to their house respectively like Santa does… Why can’t I just give it to that someone special I like, I don’t know… maybe I should just only give it to her, this way things will be way more easily… the problem is I don’t have her address… actually that is not a problem, the problem is I 'hum'. Everyone said that Wee Kiat is very 'hum', but he face it and make his confession, he even deliver his Christmas present to her house. I did none of it, nothing at all… all I do is thinking… and that doesn’t help in any progress.
Though I very much want to spend my Christmas outside, once again I am indoor and bored out... however nothing better to do but sleeping every now and then. Hehe... well that's about it... nothing much about Christmas day.. Byebye..
Oh, by the way… MERRY CHRSTMAS EVERYONE.
posted at 6:52 AM
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